Missing somebody this much is not enjoyable. It’s only been (about) a week yet life just feels dull, lack lustre and grey. As if all colour has just been washed away. Forgive me if I’m being a little melodramatic and making my life sound like a Stephanie Meyer novel but it does suck. It’s not a feeling like can’t cope but that I don’t want to cope. The last time I felt like this was like March but that was a different situation, where I felt as if I had some degree of control to the situation but this is entirely different. Having someone that brings such happiness, warmth and purpose to your life, taken away in such an upbrupt manner, leaves a lot to be desired. But I need to find some way of coping because it’ll be happening a lot more soon enough.
Just one month. I hope to god I’m strong enough then.
Oh and one more thing, for those of you who know, Opalgem is the strongest bitch this side of Azeroth.
AN:Due to a multitude of friends asking me to, I’m just going do a short post to get back into the swing of blogging. Enjoy!
So yeah, recently I’ve been learning a few things about myself. Well maybe not so much learning but more being reminded of. They all seem to be aspects of my personality and what I would characterise as flaws.
Firstly, I’m lie to myself too much or I’m a hypocrite. For example, I try to aspire to be so much yet I go against these ‘goals’ all the time and sometimes expect other to meet these and get annoyed when they don’t. I think of myself as a level headed person yet I snap at my brother day in day out, for the stupidest of reasons.
Secondly, I’m the biggest control freak and when I feel things are out of my control, I can’t cope and it really stresses me out. When ever I have to wait for something to take place, or wait patiently on the sidelines while things happen to people I care about while I’m helpless. I just get really, pathetically, angry. If there’s a variable that I can’t control, I turn into a brute.
Thirdly, (oddly I never realised this or maybe I was just lying to myself) I’m ridiculously jealous and an approval seeking, attention whore. I’ve only realised this recently due to spending a lot of time eith/talking to my girlfriend. If I’m her company and I’m not receiving her full attention, it really pissses me off. I’m learning to deal with it but it’s a slow process.
That’s all folks (for now)
vendittelli asked: What happened to the spelling in the last post?
Quick typing from my phone happened :P
Anonymous asked: I think that, because you love me, you should answer all of those questions you posted ashort while back ;) just for me. I'm awesome. Ps. Side braid, that's genius ;)
I’ll post a better question set and you pick questions from that :P
Also I hope you know how obvious it is who you are, like even without the side braid thing :L
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